October 2010 (Now)

Delayed words.

Unproper excuses.

Paused feelings... is too late.

Now you are unworthy.

I´m an another version of myself.

That episode was another pain of growing.

Free now, released by you against my will

Those things you remind me I did - every one in orden to preserve my dignity-

I will did it again a thousand times and more.

Without any remorse, no pain, no doubts.

No regrets.

God has glued every piece of my heart, and the scars are no itching...just there are to remind me that I´m a stronger and wiser woman.

October 2008 (Then)

I Would shout but I have not voice.

I Would cry but I have not tears.

I would run away but escape is not the answer.

I still wonder why, if my only sin was to love you more than myself.

If my only flaw was trust blindfolded in your words.

If I was there for you in every moment.

Now you hurt me deeply without any remorse.

Never more… I will not allow you in my life.

Even I need you time to time.

Even I had built with you my greatest dreams, my higher goals, a whole life together.

I´ve collected every piece of my heart.

With the God´s love I will restore myself.

Now I know this illusion wasn’t real.

I should not support that heavy weight of dreamt alone in a tale for two.

All that feelings that you said you felt were a lie.

Pure emptiness in your soul, a bitter poison instead of blood.

I don’t hate you, I can´t do it, I´ve never hate anyone in my life.

But I feel hurted, disappointed, sad, with no support beneath my feet.

Trying to be brave, trying to walk straight, trying to don’t think.

Looking forward with the certainty that tomorrow I will be happy again.